i lost connection

Today I snuck out of the house as early as possible to avoid seeing him. I longed to know whether everything was resolved but too terrified to confront the truth. So instead I slipped out to my car before the sun was fully risen and set off for the familiar space of a big, empty room which would stay empty for the next few hours.

I fear what his next words will be. I shudder to think something so trivial could cause such a rupture.

I just want to wake up and have it be happy again. I'm sick of all the bile.

Adrift,
-K