what a lovely war

Dear K-

You bring up a point I have tried to stress to others for years. For life to be appreciated we require variation. There must be epic heights and abysmal lows. There must be bile for the honey to taste sweet. The greatest love that could ever exist can only do so if one has also experienced heartache. I find the heavy days are more tolerable if you think how the later times will seem a bit lighter in comparison. At this point in my life I can’t complain about too many things of much consequence. Relationships are strained in some moments, but sometimes there is no other way. So it goes.

I apologize if I sweep to the dramatic at times. Occasionally I treat written correspondence with a great preponderance of professionalism and etiquette because I feel it to be a great overlooked, outdated form of communication. I like to keep it in the lofty erudite or artistic clouds since most electronic conversations have been reduced to as few characters as possible. Dismal Lols and ttyls. Disgusting.

Almost every day I run. It is one of the few things that brings me pleasure consistently. Even though some days are so bitterly cold and my bones feel weak and creaky, I still force myself to kick out the miles because I know I won’t feel right without it. Sleep is elusive once again, and it becomes nonexistent without logging at least a few miles of running a day. One day I’d like to live somewhere with numerous trails and routes to explore so I would never get bored. In Brno I occasionally would run along the river, on the deserted paths alternating between patches of loose pebbles and the sandy bank. Every now and then I would pass a lonely fisherman, sitting on the shore on an overturned bucket with his rod arcing gracefully over the gently bubbling waters. The river gurgled like hot pitch but I knew from a few slips and missteps that its water was still ice despite the slowly climbing temperatures that came with the spring months.

Some days I miss it. Today more than usual.

I think I am moving again.

Hope you are well,
-K